I've been a mom for the past seven months and during that time, the responsibility of being a mom has hit me. Also during these past several months, I've talked about being a mom, I've embraced being a mom and I have enjoyed being a mom. But for some reason, today made it feel more real. When I went to Target to pick up some cards this week, I couldn't help but think that I would be getting one of those cards this year.  I giggled to myself whenever anyone asked me what my plans for Mother's Day were. It's like I've joined an exclusive club! It's so exciting!

I always knew that I wanted to be a mom. I've always pictured myself in a house full of boys. However, there was a time in my life where I worried that I would never have that. I had kind of given up on that, to be honest. When I found out that I was pregnant, I almost couldn't believe it. In the back of my mind, I really thought that the opportunity to have kids was gone. I felt that I had been given a bonus, this was my chance. One of my dreams was finally coming true. At the same time, I was so afraid to believe it. I was so afraid that something was going to happen, that I was going to wake up and there would be no pregnancy, no baby. Even as my belly grew, it still felt unreal.

When Ryder was born, it was by emergency C-Section. I was under so much anesthesia that when they showed him to me, I couldn't even turn my head to look at him. He was taken to the nursery while they sewed me up and took me to recovery. I was officially a mom, but had yet to hold, see, smell my baby. It was about three hours before I got to hold my baby. I knew at that moment that more than anything in my life, I was made to be a mom.

 Since Ryder was born, I have found joy in every day. Not every day has been great or perfect, but I have smiled at least once each day. If there were nights where I had little or no sleep, I just looked at that little face and knew that it was all worth it. It's an odd feeling to know that someones well-being relies on you. And even though I want Ryder to be himself, to be confident in who he is, I know that a lot of his views and actions, will be a result of how I (we) have raised him. It is my job to help him find beauty in every day, to see the good in people, to be kind. It's heavy. A tall order. It's a task that I am excited to take on. I know that I will learn from him, as much as he will learn from me.

As my first official Mother's Day comes to a close, I look down at the chubby cheeks of the little boy who made this day possible and I can't help but think that I have finally arrived.

Now Henry grabs his socks off, stuffs them into his mouth and then grabs for his toes.

 I did not want to post these pictures and get some hate mail about gagging my child.

He chooses to gag himself, thank you very much.

Laat ik beginnen met een positieve observatie: de makers hebben ervoor gekozen de beelden te voorzien van de sfeervolle muziek van componist Michael Giachino, de componist die ondermeer de muziek schreef voor de film "The Incredibles", de serie "Alias" en natuurlijk "Lost". Ik wist niet dat RTL4 de rechten bezit om de muziek van "Lost" onder het gezwam van Derek Ogilvie te plakken, maar ik ben blij toe: het is het enige dat me ervan weerhield de televisie niet uit te zetten!

Ik denk dat ik met de laatste zin van de vorige alinea mijn mening omtrent Derek Ogilvie al heb weggegeven: ik heb niets gezien wat me heeft doen twijfelen aan de gedachte dat hij een oplichter is. Bovendien komt hij op mij over als een zeer emotioneel labiel persoon, maar waarschijnlijk is dat een deel van zijn "act". Die act bestaat uit de volgende ingrediënten:

- misdirection - Net zoals een goede goochelaar/illusionist maakt hij gebruik van" misdirection" om toeschouwers/cliënten af te leiden van wat er daadwerkelijk gebeurt. Hij beweegt veel, hij staat plotseling op midden in zinnen, hij loopt onverwachte richtingen op en hij lijkt soms ineens in een trance te raken waarbij hij af en toe zelfs vreemde geluiden produceert. Dit gedrag is zo bevreemdend dat mensen om hem heen overdonderd raken en zich niet meer goed kunnen concentreren op de realiteit. Het principe van "misdirection" is als volgt te omschrijven: de grote beweging leidt af van de kleine beweging oftewel in het geval van Derek Ogilvie, zijn bizarre gedrag leidt af van de onbeduidende, vaak oncontroleerbare informatie waarmee hij op de proppen komt.

- intimidatie - Derek komt vaak erg aggressief over. Hij commandeert mensen de kamer te verlaten, of naar een bepaalde plaats te lopen of hij begint ineens te schelden tegen een "geest". De mensen om hem heen laten dit gedwee toe (in hun eigen huis!!) omdat ze hopen door Derek geholpen te worden, maar wat ze eigenlijk toe laten is dat Derek een kortstondige hiërachische structuur creëert waarin hij bovenaan staat, waarin hij het roer in handen heeft. Het is daarna zeer onnatuurlijk als lager geplaatste persoon in die structuur Derek te wijzen op eventuele missers, onderbewust is het in die situatie namelijk gepaster om Derek zoveel mogelijk gelijk te geven. Veel mediums maken gebruik van dit principe, maar ik heb nog nooit iemand dat zo aggressief zien doen als Derek.

- cold- en hotreading - Derek gebruikte de meest simpele coldreadingtrucs tijdens zijn groepsessies: losse onsamenhangende stukjes informatie roepen en als hij beet had (iemand herkende de informatie) begon hij met de gebruikelijke spervuur aan vragen. Ik heb ook het sterke vermoeden dat Derek gebruik maakt van vooraf verkregen informatie (hotreading). Ik heb er geen bewijs voor, het viel echter op dat hij sommige informatie niet in vraagvorm bracht maar als een onbetwistbaar feit presenteerde alsof hij ineens uit het niets zeker was van zijn zaak. De vraag is natuurlijk: als hij zo zeker is waarom brengt hij dan niet alle informatie als feiten? Het meest simpele antwoord is dat hij sommige informatie vantevoren al wist, het is ook niet moeilijk om daar aan te komen!

Dat is Derek Ogilvie in een notendop. Tot slot nog enkele korte analyses van de zaken die gisteravond aan bod kwamen.

- Het onhandelbare jongetje Jaïr - Dit kwam op mij totaal ongeloofwaardig over. Na zijn gebruikelijke intimidatie routine concludeerde hij dat Jaïr geesten kon zien of zoals hij zei ("...he can see dead people...") ook Ogilvie gaat dus blijkbaar naar de bioscoop! De moeder bevestigde dit met het verhaal dat Jaïr inderdaad zegt "spookjes" te kunnen zien. Ik zou zeggen: probeer maar eens ouders te vinden wiens kinderen beweren nog nooit onzichtbare entiteiten in hun huis te hebben gezien. Zo dacht ik vroeger dat er een krokodil onder mijn bed woonde. Hoe vaak mijn ouders ook lieten zien dat er geen krokodil was, ik hoorde hem 's-nachts in mijn kamer kruipen en zag geregeld zijn ogen glinsteren in de duisternis. Ook dacht ik in onze tuin een deur te hebben gevonden die direct toegang gaf tot Amerika; toen ik hem aan mijn vader wilde laten zien was de deur nergens meer te bekennen, maar tot op de dag van vandaag zou ik zweren dat ik er tenminste één keer gebruik van heb gemaakt. Een vriendje van mij dacht dat er een geest in de boom van zijn tuin leefde, hij liep met een grote boog om die boom heen en ik werd ook wel een beetje bang van die boom. Oftewel: kinderen hebben een grote fantasie!

- De groepsessie - Een hoop "misdirection": zenuwachtig heen en weer lopen, vreemde geluiden maken en natuurlijk dat onverklaarbare snelle geschets op dat kladblok; heel afleidend allemaal! Natuurlijk was het allemaal ge-edit, maar als dit het beste is wat ze er van konden maken moet het een slechte onbevredigende avond zijn geweest voor de aanwezigen. Ik heb in ieder geval betere coldreaders gezien!

- Tessa en haar vader - Dit vond ik de meest ergelijke vertoning van allemaal. Bij de eerste ontmoeting begint hij weer met zijn intimidatieroutine waarna hij het presteert om niet Tessa met het contact met haar vader te helpen, maar een heel andere show neer te zetten rond de zogenaamde negatieve energie in haar huis die hij "voelde" (daar had Tessa ook over geschreven in de brief aan Derek). Het was natuurlijk allemaal weer geknipt maar de volgende twee dingen vielen me op:

- vlak voordat hij met de buurvrouw, Karina, spreekt stuurt hij Tessa weg. Wederom een duidelijk voorbeeld van zijn autoriteitsstrategie: hij laat nog even snel zien aan Karina dat hij de baas is.

- Hij begint het gesprek (het begin zoals vertoond) met drie (!!) duidelijke missers: hij vraagt of een vriend van Karina gestorven is (en dat wist hij dus al van Tessa, goed voorbeeld van hotreading) en hij wijst vaag naar een plek in de kamer. "...Here?..." antwoordt Karina verbaasd en Derek weet gelijk dat het dus niet "here" gebeurd is! Hij stopt meteen met zijn wijzende gebaar en veranderd het in een ander handgebaar en komt met twee vragen: "...was he murdered or was it an accident?.... Derek wist al dat die vriend op gruwelijke wijze was omgekomen ( dat vertelde Tessa hem), dus hij had zelf al bedacht dat "gruwelijk" hoogstwaarschijnlijk een moord of een ongeluk betekekende; helaas voor hem waren het beide missers! Let op Karina's antwoord: "...yes, it was a selfkill...". Zij antwoord dus bevestigend terwijl hij helemaal fout zat en vervolgens geeft ze hem nog de goede oplossing EN wijst daarbij naar haar nek. Natuurlijk heeft die vriend zichzelf dan opgehangen (anders had ze niet naar nek gewezen). Om nog een "yes" van haar te krijgen vraagt hij dan ook maar of het om een "strangling" (verwurging) ging. Ik denk dat hij hier veilig het woord "hanging" had kunnen gebruiken maar na drie missers neemt hij geen risico's meer en kiest voor "strangling".

Bij de tweede ontmoeting van Tessa maakt hij gebruik van twee oude coldreadingtrucs: hij begint over juwelen en spiegelreflecties. Het merendeel van de vrouwen kunnen wel een connectie vinden tussen juwelen en overleden personen en iedereen kijkt dagelijks in de spiegel, dat zijn dus twee onderwerpen waarmee een coldreader gegarandeerd hits krijgt! Dat gedoe met die auto was ook lachwekkend, wie zegt mij dat hij niet buiten de auto heeft bekeken? Voor de rest kwam hij met horoscoop/tarot-achtig klinkende adviezen die op praktisch iedereen van toepassing zijn ("...je wilt altijd meer...neem genoegen met wat je hebt...) en met statistische feiten (...je hebt een trauma overgehouden aan het overlijden van je vader op jonge leeftijd....je denkt er geregeld aan terug...over een aantal jaar zul je wel weer willen verhuizen...).Kortom: er is niets gezegd waar paranormale gaves voor nodig zijn!

Ik ben niet onder de indruk van Ogilvie, sterker nog: mijn vermoeden dat hij een oplichter is is sterk bevestigd. Ik zeg het nog maar een keer: een medium moet op een betrouwbare wijze getest worden op zijn gaves voordat je hem kan geloven; het blijkt gewoon te makkelijk om mensen voor de gek te houden met simpele trucs en sluwe strategiën. Derek Ogilvie is getest EN gezakt*, dat feit is in combinatie met de uitzending van gisteravond en zonder twijfel de uitzendingen die nog gaan komen reden genoeg om hem te bannen van de Nederlande televisie! Eigenlijk heb ik maar één waardevolle les meegekregen van de uitzending: Giachino is een fantastisch filmcomponist die mooie muziek schrijft, maar als je er echt van wil genieten raad ik je aan gewoon naar "Lost" te kijken. Bij goede televisie komt de muziek uiteindelijk toch beter tot zijn recht!

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Mommy's Day. First, happy mother's day to all of my mom friends, mom blog-lurkers, and anyone else passing through. If you have been a mom, or just acted as a caregiver to a child - this day is for you.

Second, to all of the people out there who dream of being a mom and are struggling, I know how tough this day is for you. I'm sorry, and my thoughts and prayers are with all of you. Although we are blessed to have Little Dude in our lives now, I remember the tears and frustration prior to having him.

I found out I was pregnant a week after mother's day, two years ago. The week before that BFP ("big fat positive," for those of you who have never entered the baby-craving Web world), I silently cried all through church, with tears escaping down my cheeks at various times, as the message focused on moms. And when I got home, I sobbed my eyes out. My friend A, and I exchanged our frustration and depression, at our inabilities to become moms, on a regular basis, via email.

Happily, she and I have both been blessed with beautiful and healthy little boys. Me, last year. Her, earlier this year.

But back to that year, two years ago... When I was in church that day, one of the ladies who attends our church, Mrs. P, turned to me at one point, and mentioned that "maybe next year" I would be celebrating with the rest of the moms. Mrs. P had no idea the struggles we had been through and how hopeless that idea seemed to me.

I adore Mrs. P, and she was my parent's neighbor for years and years, while my sisters and I were growing up, but I was just a bit upset at the time, as to me, when people said things along the lines of, "so, when are you going to have a baby?" or, "hopefully, you will be a mom someday," it tended to rub salt in that wound. I had learned to just say, "we aren't having children," to most people, as it avoided the talk of getting pregnant and such.

However, like I've told Mrs. P, I now think of her as kind-of my angel - sent to me to maybe let me know that all of that was about to change. Just a day short of one week after mother's day, I took the test. And it was positive.

In fact, it turned positive before I had even had a chance to set it down to wait. I darn near fell off the toilet, to be blunt, when I saw it change!

The funny thing was, although things were off a bit, I didn't suspect I was pregnant at the time. I was taking the test for my own peace of mind, just to rule out the possibility that I was pregnant, as I was scheduled to begin taking a new medication, which I couldn't take if I was pregnant. And I just wanted to be safe.

I'm so glad I tested.

So, there is my mommy's day story. It has been a whirlwind two years since then, and I'm so happy to celebrate today as my second official year as a mommy. And overall, it has been a great day!

Once again, to all of you moms, grandmas or other caregivers, happy mother's day. Thank you for making the difference in the life of a child.

To all of you who struggle with this holiday, for whatever reason, I hope tomorrow brings a new day, new hopes and a sense of peace.

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Now for the personal stuff --

To my mom - Thank you for all you do, have done, and will do. Thank you, especially, for not killing me during the teen years. Not that you would, as I was such a perfect child, but I'm just sayin'... I'm so thrilled Little Dude has you as a grandma, and that you are able to spend two days a week caring for him! You are building a bond with him that he will always remember.

To my mother-in-law - Thank you for raising the Hubby to be the man he is today (and teaching him how to cook, or we all might starve!!!!!), and for accepting me into your family with love and open arms. I am so thankful you are here and that you adore Little Dude. It warms my heart to see him with you! I wish we could all be up at the hospital with you on Tuesday, but will stay connected via phone. We hope and pray all goes well, and that you have a speedy recovery!

To my grandmother - Thank you for still seeing me as grandma's girl, for loving to talk with me, for always looking out for me and for being on the end of the phone, or there with a hug, when it felt like I didn't have a friend and was fighting disagreeing with my parents. (Rest of the world - you didn't see that part. I was a perfect child. Right mom?) Thank you for adoring Little Dude, and listening to me blather on about how perfect he truly is - just like me as a child, right? ;-)

To my Aunt Char - Thank you for taking me into your home as a nanny to your eldest child (who is about to graduate from high school, holy cow!), when mom and I needed a bit of a break from each other during those late teen years (again, I was perfect, so I don't know why that was...). Thank you for being there and letting me play mom to Maggie. Just remember, when she is being difficult - I didn't teach her that!

To my sisters - Happy mom's day to you both. To the older sister, Mrs V - Thanks for being there with years of advice, including some of those truly embarrassing questions you answered while you were in college, of which I will not share the details on here, for fear of ruining my fairly family-friendly blog. J - You are mom to your cats, and have played mom for some of the past boyfriends, so we'll let you share in it, too. ;-) **giggle**

And to my friend A - In the words of a very old ad campaign (for cigarettes, of all things not family-friendly, I believe), "We've come a long way, baby!" Happy 1st Mom's Day!

Happy Mother's Day, everyone!

Yep, that's ME. Well, at least, that's how I feel most of the time,lolololololol.......... Hey, I was born in 1969, I was adopted...I have 6 toes on each of my cloven feet...

HA! My feet are funky, but not quite to that extent.

So, this is what I read about the Beatles, The Devil, the Manson murders and the Polanski connection. It's copied from the website http://stargods.org/BeatlesEvil.html.

The Beatles were satanists that had made a pact with the devil, and the bill had to be paid to the coven. Every band that has made a pact with satan has had a member die. Rolling Stones, Led Zeppelin, Beatles, The Who, etc. In an interview with Barbara Walters, Lennon assassin Mark David Chapman clearly demonstrated that he was a satanist. In other words he was an errand boy collecting the payment for satan’s bill.

"Alone in my apartment back in Honolulu, I would strip naked and put on Beatles records and pray to Satan to give me the strength. I prayed for demons to enter my body to give me the power to kill" (cited by Evangelist Richard Ciarrocca, Observations, Dec. 1990).

“In his book, The Ultimate Evil, investigator-author Maury Terry writes that between 1966 and 1967, the Satanic cult, the Process Church, 'sought to recruit the Beatles.'"

The Beatles' Sargent Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band album was dedicated to satanist Aleister Crowley. It was released 20 years, nearly to the day, after Crowley's death in 1947. The title song with the lyrics, "It was twenty years ago today..." On the album cover we see a collection of the Beatles personal heros. Aleister Crowley appears there.

Crowley was born in 1875 and was called the "Great Beast." He was known to practice ritual child sacrifice regularly, in his role as Satan's high priest or "Magus." Crowley died in 1947 due to complications of his huge heroin addiction. Before dying, he succeeded in establishing Satanic covens in many U.S. cities including Hollywood. Kenneth Anger, like Crowley, is a Magus, and appears to be the heir to Crowley. Anger was seventeen years old when Crowley died. In that same year, 1947, Anger was already producing and directing films which, even by today's standards, reek of pure evil.” - http://www.geocities.com/mmiddleton87/

A key link between the Beatles and the Process Church is Kenneth Anger, a follower of the "founding father" of modern Satanism, Aleister Crowley. Anger, born in 1930, and a child Hollywood movie star, became a devoted disciple of Crowley.

The movie Rosemary's baby was filmed in the Dakota building were John Lennon was shot to death. It also appears that John Lennon knew the director personally. “The Director of Rosemary’s Baby was Roman Polanski. (At a party in California in 1973, Lennon ‘went berserk, hurling a chair out the window, smashing mirrors, heaving a TV against the wall, and screaming nonsense about film director Roman Polanski being to blame’ - Giuliano)

It’s also interesting to note that when the Beatles went to India to see the Yogi, John Lennon took along Mia Farrow star of the movie Rosemary’s Baby. It would appear that birds of the same occult coven flock together.

Did this nobody Director make a pact with the Hollywood coven in order that he be given a very choice script. So what is the price for fame in the underworld. It is the killing of your baby! This fact is even stressed in the movie. The coven in the movie demand Rosemary's baby in return for her husband's success and Hollywood fame.

It was an amazing coincidence that the film had a plot that would be similarly played out a year later - Polanski's pregnant actress/wife Sharon Tate would be murdered by Charles Manson's followers.

The murder of his wife appears to be pre-payment for an Academy Award nomination for Polanski's Best Adapted Screenplay. This movie was a critically-acclaimed and a commercially successful film.

Weeks before Lennon's death, on his latest album there was a song by Yoko Ono titled Kiss Kiss Kiss. When played backwards one can hear Yoko say, "I shot John Lennon." This is the same album that John Chapman listened to over and over again! Was Chapman under mind control induced by the album.

Now enter another mind control victim by the name of Charles Manson another santanic bill collector. His followers saw to it that Roman Polanski's wife was killed along with the baby. In the movie Rosemary’s Baby, it is stressed that there is occult power in babies blood. Could this be the reason why Sharon Tate’s baby was almost taken out of the womb by Susan Aktins Sadie who wanted to cut out the baby, but couldn't because there hadn’t been time. They wanted to take out the eyes of the people, and squash them against the walls, and cut off their fingers. “We were going to mutilate them, but we didn’t have a chance to.”

Rosemary the main character in the movie, and was to have her baby taken away, had the nickname "Ro." I wonder what Roman Polanski's (who in real life had his baby murdered) nick name was? By the way, holly wood is what magicians wands are made from, and stars are the points of light that shine forth Lucifer's occultist wisdom.

Now that we know Mark Chapman and Manson were receiving messages from albums, let’s take it even further. Remember the Beatles White Album that Charles Manson received his murderous orders from.

Sexy Sadie what have you done

On the album there is a song called Sexy Sadie. Well it turns out that this was the nickname of Susan Atkins. Now “Sadie Mae Glutz was the alias given to the Family member Susan Atkins by Manson even before the appearance of the White Album song 'Sexy Sadie!' -http://www.phinnweb.com/livingroom/rosemary/

It was Sadies testimony in court that brought an end to the Manson family. Now read the lyrics below from the Beatles song Sexy Sadie.

Sexy Sady “White album” Year 1968

Sexy Sadie what have you done
You made a fool of everyone
You made a fool of everyone
Sexy Sadie ooh what have you done.

Sexy Sadie you broke the rules
You layed it down for all (the court) to see
You layed it down for all to see
Sexy Sadie oooh you broke the rules.

One sunny day the world was waiting for a lover
She came along to turn on everyone
Sexy Sadie the greatest (Manson killer)of them all.

(Susan Atkins was a sexual lover of the Manson family)

Sexy Sadie how did you know
The world was waiting just for you
The world was waiting just for you
Sexy Sadie oooh how did you know.

Sexy Sadie you'll get yours yet
However big you think you are
However big you think you are
Sexy Sadie oooh you'll get yours yet.

Susan Atkins often bragged and boasted.

We gave her everything we owned just to sit at her table
Just a smile would lighten everything
Sexy Sadie she's the latest and the greatest of them all.

She made a fool of everyone
Sexy Sadie.

However big you think you are
Sexy Sadie.
Brackets by author.

Another nickname of Susan Atkins was Sadie Mae Glutz

Maggie Mae (Written by Lennon/McCartney/Harrison/Starkey)
Album “Let it be” Year 1970

Oh dirty Maggie Mae they have taken her away
And she never walk down Lime Street any more
Oh the judge he guilty found her
For robbing a homeward bounder
That dirty no good robbin' Maggie Mae
To the port of Liverpool
They returned me to
Two pounds ten a week, that was my pay.

Beatles “Let It Be” Album
May 8th 1970

Speculation: Could the above lyrics also be a metaphor for black mail?

So why was Sharon Tate chosen to die. My feeling is that Roman Polanski made a pact with the Hollywood coven. This was an exchange for his child so that he be given fame and success. He was a nobody movie director till he was handed a script that would make him an instant success. So why give a major script to a basically unknown director and not a well established director? Why is because of his agreed sacrificial offering that would have to be made in the future. Manson would be the grocery clerk coming for the payment of the bill.

Suasan Atkins Sadie had stated that Sharon Tate had been the last to die because, “She had to watch the others die.” By all accounts, Tate died in excruciating fear and agony. Bugliosi gives Atkins’ account: she was holding Sharon Tate at the time and, “Tex came back and he looked at her and he said, ‘Kill her.” And I killed her... And I just stabbed her and she fell, and I stabbed her again. I don’t know how many times I stabbed her...” Sharon begged for the life of her baby, but Atkins told her, “Shut up. I don’t want to hear it.”

“Before he killed him, Charles “Tex” Watson told Voytek Frykowski: ‘I am the Devil and I am here to do the Devil’s business.’” Months later at the trial, Manson’s “disciples” were said to have been utterly under his power.

The Beatles

"They're COMPLETELY ANTI-CHRIST. I mean, I am anti-Christ as well, but they're so anti-Christ they shock me which isn't an easy thing." Derek Taylor, Press Officer for the Beatles

"I believed that he was Satan himself at times" George Martin, Beatles Producer

"Jesus, a garlic-eating, stinking little yellow, greasy fascist bastard catholic Spaniard." (John Lennon, A Spaniard in the Works, p.14)

"Christianity will go, it will vanish and shrink. I needn't argue about that. I'm right and will be proved right. You just wait.. . .We're more powerfull than Jesus ever was.." John Lennon

Lynette "Squeaky" Fromme

Amazing too is how years later with President Ford in the White House, then Vice President Nelson Rockefeller was just a heartbeat away from becoming leader of the free world. With Rocky as Vice President, if anything should befall Ford at that time, he would instantly become President. Well, time to send in Manson's followers once again.

One of his followers Lynette "Squeaky" Fromme who steps out in a failed assassination attempt against President Ford. (September 5, 1975) Two weeks later another woman Sara Jane Moore attempts another assassination San Francisco with a handgun. (September 22, 1975)

Squeaky claimed that she did not attempt to kill President Ford, because she never injected a bullet from the handle into the chamber. Was she under mind control? Could she of been programmed just to show up with a gun?

John Lennon Murder

“HINCKLEY followed as exactly as he possibly could EVERY SINGLE MOVE that Mark David CHAPMAN had made, in the days before CHAPMAN murdered John Lennon.

Even MORE bizarre: at the time of their respective arrests following both shooting incidents, John Hinckley AND Mark David Chapman were each carrying on their person a paperback copy of the J.D. Salinger novel, ’CATCHER IN THE RYE.’ (AS did the MK-Ultra mind-controlled assassin Jerry played by Mel Gibson in the surprisingly revealing movie Conspiracy Theory.)

J.D. Salinger, certainly a gifted author, had SUBSTANTIAL and enduring ties to the U.S. intelligence community; in particular, the CIA. Was the book originally intended to be a mind-control programming tool? It's hard to say, but not inconceivable.

SO: Hinckley traced Chapman's footsteps, as it were, in an incredibly eerie AND incredibly REVEALING, scripted tableau; which culminated, as it did with Chapman, in mind-controlled Manchurian Candidate assassin Hinckley shooting his prey on the New York City streets.

Which indeed, brings up yet a FURTHER point. Hinckley FIRST CAME to New York WELL BEFORE his attempt to assassinate Reagan, in order to prepare himself for his assigned role by imitating Chapman's moves and actions of a few months before.

SO: HOW did Hinckley KNOW, several weeks BEFORE-hand, that Reagan was going to be at the place in New York City were Hinckley would shoot him, AND the DAY and TIME Reagan would be there??

SOMEBODY on the "INSIDE," who knew Reagan's schedule some time in advance, positioned Hinckley in New York well before the date of the attempted assassination of Reagan.

Somebody like George BUSH, Sr., maybe? Trying to get a jump on taking over as President? Or, maybe just sending ol' Ronnie a VERY strong, clear message about who the "boss" really was...
Written by NewsHawk

Recently George Harrison died from cancer. In the murky world of the occult there are many convenient deaths due to cancer. The occult bill collector had already come once in a previous failed attempt to kill Harrison with a knife. I find this rather curios when comparing real life to the Beatle movie called Help. In the movie Ringo is given a ring that makes him the target of a cult which wants to sacrifice him! They continually chase after him with a knife!

SANTA MONICA, December 30, 1999 -- Another Beatle victimized by violence.

Ex-Mop Top George Harrison was stabbed at his London-area home today by a knife-wielding intruder, reports say.

Harrison, 56, was stabbed once in the chest before fending off the attacker. His wife, Olivia, suffered minor head injuries in the attack, but did not require hospitalization….The attack, which reportedly took place sometime around 3:30 a.m. London time, was said to have shocked residents of the quiet, upper-class community of Henley-On-Thames. Harrison's estate was thought to be particularly well guarded. It reportedly featured 24-hour security, patrol dogs and barbed wire fencing. British authorities said they were investigating burglary as a possible motive.

A 33-year-old man -- a resident of the Beatles' own Liverpool -- was arrested and booked on suspicion of attempted murder.

Harrison's stabbing comes 19 years after fellow ex-bandmate John Lennon was shot and killed outside his New York apartment by obsessed fan Mark David Chapman.

By Jim Bartoo, Hollywood.com Staff
Occultists often use so called sacred numbers to bring them power. Sacrifices are often made on the bases of these numbers. Prime sacred numbers are 3, 6, 7, 9, 11. Sacred multiples are 19, 21, 33.

Note the year that Harrison’s attack took place. It was in 1999. Inverted with the number one left out you have 666, the most sacred number of all. He was 56 years old. 5+6= 11 which is a very sacred number. Note too that he is stabbed by a man who just happens to be 33 years old. This too is a very sacred number since it is 3X11. He was also attacked around 3:30 am (33).

Another interesting event was that Prime Minister Chretien of Canada was attacked by a young man with knife too. The man somehow got through the intense home security and found his way in to into the Prime Ministers home late at night. This murder attempt too had failed.

Conclusion

My feeling is that that the Beatles were members of the same Hollywood occult coven that Roman Polanski was. The Movie Rosemary’s Baby was a future template of what was going to happen to Polanski’s wife Sharon Tate. Also the songs recorded by the Beatles seem to indicate that they knew what was going to take place. I believe that songs like Helter Skelter, which Charles Manson felt he got his orders to kill from, were recorded by the Beatles for that express purpose.

As in the movie Rosemary’s Baby, I believe Sharon Tate was manipulated and set up by all the people that she trusted and loved including her own husband. She was the sacrifice to satan for all Polanski’s success. I for one was not fooled by his tears during his interviews.

At some point, Farrow allegedly feared she would be the next victim of the murder spree

1968 excursion to India, and John Lennon of The Beatles wrote 'Dear Prudence' (also a song on White Album) for Mia Farrow's younger sister

Mark Chapman was the name of Lennon's killer - Winifred Chapman was the maid who had first found the bodies at 10050 Cielo Drive.

And, I also feel that Anton Szandor LaVey, the founder of The Church of Satan - to whom the Family members (especially Susan Atkins)is the leader of the Hollywood Coven.

Coincidences

Roman Polanski movie,
Knife in the Water 1962

George Harrison attacked by man with knife.

All through the movie Help, Ringo Star is often chased by religious fanatics that are armed with a knife.

Susan Atkins was going to remove Sharon Tates baby with a knife.

Notes and Quotes

Sharon Tate's unborn baby, killed by the Manson family, was named Paul Richard Polanski.

Theatrical Release: Rosemary’s Baby
June 12 1968

There is no comfort in the coven of the witch Some very clever doctor went and sterilized the bitch And the only man of energy, (Manson) yes the revolution’s pride (Manson) He trained a hundred women just to kill an unborn child.
—Leonard Cohen-
“No Diamonds in the Mine”

Sharon Tate
Date of birth (location)
24 January 1943, Dallas, Texas, USA
Date of death:
9 August 1969,

Note the three 9s in this date. Inverted it becomes 666! The number of Rosemary's baby.

Rosemary's Baby

and here's my Mother's Day card from Jack (with a little help from his mother):

Anyhow, thanks to Stephen and Aimee for making my day by bringing Jack by for a visit!

How your day was as good, too.  Regards, Carla

We also celebrated with Mom in New Orleans via skype...isn't technology cool!

I love you, mom!

But her birth was not so easy.  They had a hard time stopping the bleeding, but it got under control enough for the midwife to send me home after the allotted five hours in the birthing center. 

The next year and a half was very difficult.  I bled almost every day, and was in constant pain.  I also had infections and a major injury to my neck.  At times, I could not raise my chin off of my chest.  Looking at the stars was an impossibility. 

We did not have insurance, but we knew God would provide if He wanted me to go to a doctor.  But He had taught me to seek Him first and wait for His leading;  otherwise, there would be no help found in seeking out medical help.  Jeff fasted and prayed.  He strongly sensed the Lord speak to him that I had a tear in my uterus and that I was not to go to a doctor at this time. 

I lived with this constant pain, but told no one.  I think some people may have judged me lazy or something akin, but I did the absolute best I could with the strength I had.  And I found ways to manage.

After about a year and a half of this, the Spirit of the Lord came to me asking if I was ready to have my next baby.

I laughed out loud.

Then I said that I would need a couple of days to think about that.

The next day, I went before the Lord and said, "Okay, but You have to heal me." 

I knew that in my current condition, my body was not able to sustain a pregnancy.  Well, very soon (that day or the next), I received a postcard from a ministry in Texas that was full of references to healing scriptures.  During Joy's nap times for the next two days (4 hours total), I read out loud the entire passages including the healing scriptures.  I did not do it as a religious exercise.  But rather, as I heard the passages read, I met my faith with them.

As soon as I finished, the bleeding stopped and the pain was gone!

I then had my first cycle, and the next month I was pregnant.  What an amazing, powerful, loving, awesome God!

Josiah Aaron was born on a beautiful, quiet Christmas morning, an almost perfect birth.

Thanks God.

So faith comes from hearing, and hearing by the word of Christ.   Romans 10:17

"The only real human study done thus far was for "Placental transfer of ondansetron during early human pregnancy, Siu SS." showed that the drug was found in maternal venous blood, coelomic fluid, amniotic fluid, and fetal tissue. Since this drug is a SHT3 receptor antagonist and that's key to proliferation, differebtiation and migration of the central nervous system neurons as well as chondrogenesis it is possible that the drug could have an impact  and could be so long before you ever knew that it'd be difficult to correlate the defects back to drugs."

with the lack of studies on zofran in pregnancy it is tremendously hard to find "side effects" on it (or anything more specific than "may cause birth defects"). many women claim that there are none however after scouring the web i have found numerous complaints about heart defects on babies whose mothers took zofran early in pregnancy. who knows what we will find out in ten years about this drug. until then as pregnant women we need to weigh our options and be sure to discuss any prescriptions with your health care provider and pharmacist before taking anything that you are unsure of.

so the question remains about what I am going to do about this morning sickness problem. well other than keep some crackers on my nightstand to pop into my mouth before i even sit up in the mornings. and i have been drinking Yogi brand "mother to be tea". here is a good link to some more natural remedies.

i would love to hear about what works for you!

We spent the day together. We went to Tillamook and toured the cheese factory and then we traveled down the coast and stopped in Newport for dinner. After dinner we walked along the beach and found a whole family of starfish in the tide pools. Your Daddy knew just where to find them. You are going to love him. He has so much to teach you.

It was a wonderful birthday and I can't wait to celebrate your birthday in a few months!

Fairly Reliable

• How big is Evie? Soooo big! [arms raised]
• Can you clap your hands? [although she confuses this with "more" sometimes]
• Say bye bye [wave]
• No [violent head shaking]
• Can you give daddy five? [about 5 or 6 hand slaps]
• Can you give mommy a hug? [sometimes a nice hug, sometimes more of a head butt, but super adorable]
• Do you want more puffs? [sign language for "more"]

Somewhat Reliable

• Can you point to the light?
• Where is Nala?
• Where is da da?
• Where is ma ma?

She is much better at locating the light (the first one she learned) and Nala than mommy or daddy.  Also she points with two fingers, like an outstretched peace sign, rather than with one.  It's just amazing that she's essentially learned all of that in a week or two!

Later that evening, your Daddy got home and we went out to get some dinner. I had a silly grin on my face all night and I just could not believe this was happening. I had always had romantic ideas about how I would tell him the news, but now that it was our reality, I could not think of any good way to tell him. It all happened so quickly and unexpectedly, that I myself could not believe it, let alone explain how it could be possible to him. As we crawled into bed that night, he was discussing plans for a trip and somehow I slipped out of my mouth, "I don't think I am going to be able to do that." Your Daddy looked at me in a funny way and after a bit of giggling and hesitation, I slipped out the words, "I think I might be Pregnant." I went and dug the test out of the trash and showed him, but he wasn't believing that.

I took another test on Saturday morning and by Sunday night he had come to the conclusion that the brand of test I took was not the most reliable on the market. At 10:00 on Sunday night, I got dressed and went to the store for what he thought would be a better test and some orange juice. I took a test Sunday night and another Monday morning. After four positive tests, we made an appointment with a Doctor.

By Thursday, your Daddy had been doing his research and, being the math wiz that he is, said, "It is mathematically improbable that four tests could all be wrong." He was right.

The test at the Doctor's office confirmed it; We were pregnant and ready or not, you were on your way!

I brought in a little knot hat for him to wear and was able to snap some pictures during one of his feedings.  He looks adorable in it! :)

Such a BIG yawn for such a tiny fella!

"See?  My chin matches Daddy's chin!"

Admiring my baby boy...

I know this one is a bit blurry but I loved Mason's 'thinking' expression. :)  Autumn use to make this exact same expression when she was tiny!

Happy Feet MacDonald - 2008-05-11 from Chris MacDonad on Vimeo.

 Also, another thing that is pretty normal for preemies is that they will develop jaundice & need light therapy.  Mason's lab results showed his levels had increased on the 7th so they had a light put on him and he is now sporting some lovely 'shades'. :)  The nurses told me that the jaundice levels will usually peak anywhere from day 5-10 so for us to expect the levels to increase before they start going down.  The downside to the light treatments is that we can only hold him during his feedings.  Dad & Mom had a chance to hold Mason before we found out about his jaundice but not before Jeff's parents were able to hold him.  Hopefully, they will be able to hold him soon as I know they're anxious to hold him, too!

Mason kept his weigh pretty steady on day 2 (the 7th) but lost weight on day 3 (the 8th).  On day 3 he weighed 4lbs 2.4oz.  It's normal for them to lose weight at first so it's not a worry at the time.  On day 4 (the 9th) he gained 10 grams and weighed in at 4lbs 2.8 oz.  Not much of a gain but we'll take all we can get where his weight is concerned!  Jaundice levels continued to increase a few points but should hopefully level out soon.  On Day 4, the 9th, his IV in his head was taken out since it'd went bad (they switched it to his left arm) so we were able to wash his hair!  I was so happy to have it clean as it was bugging me to see it dirty still. :)  You can see a picture of his hair washing in Mom's blog (jeanjeans photos)...as you'll see, he didn't appreciate it much! :)  They also increased his feeds from 10cc's to 20cc's on day 4.  Hopefully, he'll start gaining soon!

Here are a few pictures from day 2 and day 3:

Autumn meeting her little brother for the first time!  The next time she'll be able to see him will be on Sunday.  Basically, the siblings can meet the baby and then after that, they can come visit on every Sunday.

Mason chillin' in his shades!

'Pappy' admiring his first grandson

'Jean-Jean' holding Mason for the first time

Autumn loves laying on the big teddy bear her Mawmaw & Pawpaw bought for Mason...